Courage ..

Something courageous i have done was cut off all my hair. I think it was courageous of me to cut off all my hair because it just wasnt a BIG change and a different look it was also because i wanted to support my big brother. He was diagnosed with colon cancer at the age of 19. At first i was scared to cut it all of because i was afraid of what people would say and i also thought i would look like a boy or look weird without my hair. It took a while for me to actually cut it all of so i started to cut it slowly into different styles of short haircuts. I was finally brave enough to cut it off. I showed a lot of courage cutting off all my hair because most girls are scared to cut their hair .. well at least cut it all the way off  because hair is usually a girls most precious gift. When i first cut it off i went through a lot like i knew i would. Some people said it was ugly , some people said i looked like a boy and some people loved it. I was sad at first because of all the negative comments but then i stopped caring about what everyone else had to say about it and just expressed myself. When everyone began finding out why i cut it people start apologizing for saying all the negative stuff they had said. It was very hard for me because as i was going through all the negative things people were saying i was loosing my brother at the same time. He passed away a couple months after he was diagnosed with colon cancer. It happened so quick that i didnt think it was real. But i have learned not to care about what people say and to always express yourself my big brother always told me that " life goes on and to never worry about what people have to say about you ". Loosing my brother was the hardest pain ever and i still have my days when i want to break down and cry but my mom always told me that " death ends a life and not a relationship " and that my brother would be very proud of me. I still support my brother till this day and i will continue to. I Love You Ian ♥ .